i used to be proud of my amount of watchers
but then i realized not even half of them even pay attention to my art, posts and status updates. i dont hate any of you for it but, i mean, if you’re gonna watch someone at least try to comment, fav or something??? whenever i see a new watcher all i think now is “will they even care?”. i get all of you must be watching 300 million people but, as i said at least TRY to show you show interest in their art.for i feel as if,,, half of you are waiting for the day i become somewhat popular or something and are gonna try to,, idk use me??? no offense but i feel like thats what SOME of
Ok, so if it wasn't obvious by all of the vents i made, I am pretty much depressed everyday. On top of that i am also manic, which isnt a good mix. It may not make much sense as to WHY im depressed, so let me tell you something. I had a pretty fucked up early childhood where many things happened to me. Things ranging from verbal abuse to things I cannot talk about here, I would say my innocence was taken away when i was about 5. I honestly lost my will to live when i was 10, and even then im still alive. The only reason im alive is because people care about me. Honestly the only thing that makes me trul happy (not manic) is when i made others